This painting is called "Strong And Silent". It's about the power of just being who you are.
When my husband and I were on our road trip to Banff recently, something happened to my eyes. For days they had been feeling tired and burning and super sensitive to the light. I was wearing sunglasses over my sunglasses and feeling amazed by the chrome-filter-like colors I was seeing. Then one night, I had a vision.
My eyes were closed, and I was giving my husband some Reiki (Universal Love) when I saw my whole life story and the meaning behind all the steps I have taken to get to this point. I saw who I am and what I am to do with the rest of my life, and surprise, surprise... it isn't painting.
Of course, painting is a part of it. I would never give up the solitude of being in my studio, the companionship of the magic of the painting process, or the fun of seeing and being in love with the finished pieces. Being in my studio is where I connect with what is so important to me: Creation, Communication and Love. Which brings me back to what I am to do with the rest of my life.
It's actually not about "doing". It's about "be-ing". I've spent my decades doing all the things I needed to do to get to this place where I can now just be who I am at my deepest core - a powerful, magical, female creator, communicator and seer who, with the help of my companions, mind, heart and soul, can be a source of inspiration to others. I''ve know that about myself for some time, but what I didn't know was the second part of the vision. In the second part I saw that if I will fully embody who I am, 24/7, then everything in my life will rightfully fall into place.
Considering we live in a world of troubling projections of fear and ignorance, embodying my deepest core self 24/7 sounds challenging. At the same time it also sounds really fun to live in integrity with a personal prophecy and see things fall into place with less effort. Making things right in myself makes room for things to get right for other people, so what choice do I have except to go for it?
Since I had this awakening vision, colors and light are brighter and clearer than before. I feel more at ease - my general sense of anxiety has lessened. My eyes are still bothering me some, but I understand now that my vision in expanding in new ways. This will undoubtedly will have a significant impact on my painting. I've been feeling like a big new shift is coming to my painting, so now I just get to watch it unfold. How cool will that be?
Painting in Portland, Oregon, and writing about it here...